If you get a chance, and in order to make us all like minded, hearing the same things, give it a listen if you can.
Mr. Jack Crans will challenge you about whether you're truly repentant, humble and contrite before our Lord, and also challenge you to search your hear to ask, "am I really desperate for the things of God?" Only about 50 minutes.
http://resources.ccphilly.org/detail.asp?TopicID=137&Teaching=ECPC1906
Blessings!